FUCKING STUPID ASS! so tired of Spring, TX . Can’t wait to leave this shitty city! Counting down!!! Fake ass people. 😡😡😡😡🕛🕐🕑🕒🕓🕕🕖

You are so sickening. You’re persuasive tone, Is no longer here. The pain will fade, as time will.  My heart aches. But I did it. I ended it. Maybe it was for the best, or maybe it wasn’t, who knows? Who cares? People will always come and go, I suppose. It’s part of life. And I guess it’s something you have to deal with. How are you taking this? Better then me?.. worse? Why don’t you just fix this all and tell me everything will be okay. Why don’t you chase after anything. Like you don’t care. I guess you don’t realize, That makes the situation worse. I guess this is the way things are suppose to be though. Who knows? Who cares? This might be the most pointless blog I have EVER posted. But there isn’t really anyone one awake right now to vent to that would actually care.

My headaches are getting worse, My anxiety as well. I can’t sleep.! Who needs a boy/guy. You were pointless. A waste of my time.. Were you? Or did you make me more of a person I am today. My life has changed alot since day ONE; February 27, 2010. Not to long ago. But I grew dramatically over that time. Till TODAY; March 3, 2011. A year. How much did you really mean to me? How much did I really mean to you? Who knows? Who cares? Do I leave, Should I stay? Do I cry? Should I ache? Why were we so emotionally attached?  Why did we fight over stupid things that didn’t matter but still put doubt in our heads, Why did I try so hard to put up with someone who didn’t try as hard for me. Why did I fall for someone that I thought I would NEVER fall for. Why? Why was it you? Why did I spend that last year with you? Why did I ignore every guy in the world for you, When you didn’t do the same. Why did I put up with it? Who knows? Who cares?

Better question? Why did you put up with me? I’m so opposite of you. So negative, So selfish, So rude, So blunt, So dishonest (about things that didn’t matter), So bossy, So over dramatic, So harsh and Cruel. So abusive, So vague, with too many problems for her own self to handle. Why? You’ve never told me ? Of course you’ve told me what I hear from any other guy who wants to be so sweet. Tell me? I’d like to know! Would I? Should I? I mean NOW? When we’re done? Who knows? Who cares?

You’re probably fast asleep, sleeping better then you ever have ? Knowing what I should know. That this is only the beginning. This is not just THE beginning, It’s a NEW beginning! For a change In me, and for myself. This relationship has just made me realize what I have became.. Spoiled! And what needs to be changed. There is a plan for my life, already PLANNED out. But I have to start somewhere to get there. And this is where I begin.

Sometimes you have to do the hardest things in life, to move forward .

Do not try and relive the past. You will get no where. The people that have hurt you, Will hurt you again. The people that have let you down, will let you down again. It’s pointless. You have a future, A bright future; If that. You have more potential than most. And all you’d like to do, is turn right back around. I’ve warned you. And told you. And that’s all I can really say at this point. You can make and relive your mistakes. and I will still be here. Yeah, I’m a bit disappointed. But really, what else is there to do. People make mistakes! I guess you will have to learn from the same mistake twice.